Sunday, January 13, 2008

Borrowed day

Sitting in my room, looking at the walls, watching time pass, searching for answers, waiting for the trigger, a trigger for what, I wonder? Listening to the song I pause, try to find me in it...
"I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me"
Can't argue with this one... But who am I, knowing that I don't want to be anything other than me, who is me? Or as my English friend will correct me, who am I?
This one is not a helpful post, no great inside thoughts, just borrowing other people's words, for those who don't know me, I do this constantly. Borrowing other people's words, it is defensive; you say all you want without really saying a thing, with the bonus that others seem always wiser than me. I feel like sharing the lyric that inspired some of my new years resolutions, seems appropriate today...
"All you folks think you own my life
But you never made any sacrifice
Demons they are on my trail
I'm standing at the crossroads of hell
I look to the left I look to the right
There's hands that grab me on every side
All you folks think I got my price
At which I'll sell all that is mine
You think money rules when all else fails
Go sell your soul and keep your shell
I'm trying to protect what I keep inside
All the reasons why I live my life
Some say the devil be a mystical thing
I say the devil he a walking man
He a fool he a liar conjurer and a thief
He try to tell you what you need
Try to tell you what you need
Standing at the point
The road it cross you down
What is at your back
Which way do you turn
Who will come to find you first
Your devils or your gods
All you filks think you run my life
Say I should be willing to compromise
I say all you demons go back to hell
I'll save my soul save myself"
The crossroads of life, you can't stay indefinitely in them, you need to make choices, even by not making them.
Sorry for this post of, let’s say some insight into my thoughts of today, without using my thoughts. Borrowing words, sometimes give meaning to the void within ourselves, for a moment someone understands us, a perfect song towards finding the soundtrack of our lives, at least for a moment...

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