The middle

This is the song that came to me during the day, for some it might be an eye opener, for other just a good song ;)

Hometown Glory...

This is not the right day to write about this song and its implications, yet I feel I should share, let's start with the lyric and video, and take it from there...



I've been walking in the same way as I did
Missing out the cracks in the pavement
And tutting my heel and strutting my feet
"Is there anything I can do for you dear? Is there anyone I can call?"
"No and thank you, please Madam. I ain't lost, just wandering"

Round my hometown
Memories are fresh
Round my hometown
Ooh the people I've met
Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of this world
Are the wonders of my world

I like it in the city when the air is so thick and opaque
I love to see everybody in short skirts, shorts and shades
I like it in the city when two worlds collide
You get the people and the government
Everybody taking different sides

Shows that we ain't gonna stand shit
Shows that we are united
Shows that we ain't gonna take it
Shows that we ain't gonna stand shit
Shows that we are united

Round my hometown
Memories are fresh
Round my hometown
Ooh the people I've met

Are the wonders of my world (4x)


Cascais, my hometown,that place that watched me ground, that in a way moulded me into who I am...
The beauty of one's hometown, the purity our former selves, the feeling of pure potential, the essence of our soul reflected all around, the simplicity of being, the friendships, relationships, the bumps of life, our rises and our falls...
A place of simple synthesis and complex feelings, a place that became too small for oneself and yet too big to be just part of our past, the stories that defines us, that state who we are without any need for analysis...
This song brought the memories to the surface, the world traveller will always cherish the hometown, for what it is, for what it means, for what it contains, for what it describes, for what it defines...
The different people, the different buildings, the different scenarios, they simply show that nothing stays still, nor us, nor the world, we need change as much as we need the comfort of belonging, change is the iterations of one's self over a period, yet the origin is there, to know where we are going we need to know where we are coming from, I agree with these words.
Hello world, my name is Pedro I come from Cascais...

(I will add a picture as soon as I go to Portugal ;))

The story...

This tittle might be misleading, yet I use it to give relevance to the song that was the soundtrack of my walk home. Yesterday's day had less impact on me than expected, if any at all, yes I know you are not aware, I had some notes on my PhD report which from perspective where mostly right, but not nice to hear. Today I've figured that regardless of that, or any work stuff, I'll be OK, how cool is that?
So I was walking home, cold in my face, deserted university, the silence of the night, the dim street lights lights, the trees, maybe nature itself... And I started to hear this song, this perfect song, the song that made me smile at the truth and yet be glad to be me.
All of these lines across my face, tell you the story of who I am. So many stories of where I've been, and how I got to where I am. But these stories don't mean anything, when you've got no one to tell them to, It's true...I was made for you.
I climbed across the mountain tops, swam all across the ocean blue, I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules, but baby I broke them all for you, because even when I was flat broke, you made me feel like a million bucks, you do...I was made for you.
You see the smile that's on my mouth, it's hiding the words that don't come out, and all of my friends who think that I'm blessed, they don't know my head is a mess. No, they don't know who I really am, and they don't know what I've been through like you do, and I was made for you...
All of these lines across my face, tell you the story of who I am. So many stories of where I've been, and how I got to where I am, but these stories don't mean anything, when you've got no one to tell them to, it's true...I was made for you.



Sorry for the trick to get you to read the lyric, I am not that deep ;).All in all I still have a smirk in my face, go figure...

Collecting my thoughts...

... to myself :P.

Crazy...

So today I was going to do one of those lyrics in text, yet while doing I figured it did make sense to do so...
Mood is a funny thing, events give shape to our mood, yet the our mood shapes our vision of events, thus if you manage to shape your mood the events will seem to fall into place. Some wise words I didn't thought where in me today :P, yet here they are how awesome is it to have a thought while typing...
Anyway the song I would like to share with lyric is crazy, and I do agree we will never survive unless we get a little crazy!



In a church,by the face,
He talks about the people going under.

Only child know...

A man decides after seventy years,
That what he goes there for, is to unlock the door.
While those around him criticize and sleep...
And through a fractal on a breaking wall,
I see you my friend, and touch your face again.
Miracles will happen as we trip.

But we're never gonna survive, unless...
We get a little crazy
No we're never gonna survive, unless...
We are a little...

Cray...cray...cray...

...Crazy yellow people walking through my head.
One of them's got a gun, to shoot the other one.
And yet together they were friends at school
Ohh, get it, get it, get it, get it no no!

If all were there when we first took the pill,
Then maybe, then maybe, then maybe, then maybe...
Miracles will happen as we speak.

But we're never gonna survive unless...
We get a little crazy.
No we're never gonna survive unless...
We are a little...
Crazy...
No no, never survive, unless we get a little... bit...

Oh, a little bit...
Oh, a little bit...

Oh...
Oh...

Amanda decides to go along after seventeen years...

Oh darlin...
In a sky full of people, only some want to fly,
Isn't that crazy?
In a world full of people, only some want to fly,
Isn't that crazy?
Crazy...
In a heaven of people there's only some want to fly,
Ain't that crazy?
Oh babe... Oh darlin...
In a world full of people there's only some want to fly,
Isn't that crazy?
Isn't that crazy... Isn't that crazy... Isn't that crazy...

Ohh...
But we're never gonna survive unless, we get a little crazy.. crazy..
No we're never gonna to survive unless we are a little... crazy..
But we're never gonna survive unless, we get a little crazy.. crazy..
No we're never gonna to survive unless, we are a little.. crazy..
No no, never survive unless, we get a little bit...

And then you see things
The size
Of which you've never known before

They'll break it

Someday...

Only child know....

Them things
The size
Of which you've never known before

Someday...
Someway...
Someday...
Someway...
Someday...
Someway...
Someday...

Mr. Brightside...

Hello all you crazy bloggers, not sure that is a real word, regardless today I decided to write a bit, not too much, but sightly more than recently, thus providing you with some insight to the nothingness of my life (you have to love my coherence with the topic of the blog, I am so awesome :P).
So this weekend was bank holiday weekend, translating to all of the non English readers, a extended weekend, thus tomorrow is a holiday. English don't have many fix date holidays, they shit to end up at a Monday, freaks lose the 4 day weekends we get in Portugal, or at least the potential for that. Nevertheless this is not the point although it is always nice to have some insight into other countries cultures. So going back on the ball, 3 nights, and 3 night outs, haven't done this in ages, really like ages, even going out was becoming rare, now in 3 nights .... Ehehhehe...
And today the song Mr. Brightside was on, and I realised how much I missed that song, it is my fucking song, I might not seem it, specially in this blog, but I am that guy, all in all I had lost that for a while, and now seems to be back and honestly I have no clue why.
Life is just simple, things are as they are, I accept things with ease, not concerned, simply a guy with a smirk that hints that he knows something nobody else knows. The thing is what do I really have to prove? Not going in details but, regardless of where I might fail, I know all in all the score will be extremely positive, this certainty provides me with the aceptance of the big picture, and it is awesome ;).
So enjoy my song, I had some problems choosing the right video, I think the topic of friendship is a cool one, specially since I thought about one lost friend recently, but you have to see the big picture...

Parallel universes

Parallel universes is one of those science fiction topics that is always interesting for any geek, or from my point of view interesting for any person of interest. Regardless of the topic catches your attention or not, I would like to dare you to watch something that just might make you think a little...

The small curiosities of a english night out

Right, so today I went out for a drink with some friends, until here nothing new, well maybe in recent times it is new :P, anyway I left my house at 21:15 just after dinner, a bit early but nothing too strange. I step out of the house, and guess what? still daylight, so I went out at night during the day. Went to town, the usual British dress code, meaning as few clothes as possible, even though it was quite cold, nothing usual in an British night life scene. So drinks turned into a club and there you can see the British society at its best, no rules, just fun :P.
We left when it close, translation at 4 in the morning, and this expression has new meaning for me, because it is fucking morning out, no night. I mean I've been out partying until day light a lot of times, but this is ridiculous, honestly huge days are awful. Anyway this is just the curiosity I wanted to share of the evening, other things I would like to share but I am taking the approach ask and you shall know ;).

Ah, almost forgot the song that was stuck in my head the whole day, great beat, great rhythm, great lyric, and it just makes you want to dance. It is an oldie but the cover sounds great, enjoy ;)

Send me an angel...

So continuing my song from the past mood I can across two song with the same name from my past. These are great, or at least bring back great memories, man I am talking like an old dude, age comes to all, anyway, the first I heard in the movie the teenage wolf 2, it has a brilliant lyric, on the other hand the video is, well LOL, this is way before my time but it is always cool for a laugh. I included the version of the song that I remember which is a bit more recent, this is my from my time as a romantic, yes I had a romantic time :P. By the way if you are curious check the other video, I promise great hair styles :P.



The second song is a classic from scorpions and requires no introduction, or maybe it does, but I wont provide it :P

Mancheter United wins...

Right, I had a day full of excitement, or shall I say several events occurred thus causing severals levels of reactions from my part. Nevertheless I will not go into my day, since that would be too personal on one side of events, and too masochistic on another... Yet the day ended at the mooch,translating, the university campus bar watching an all English Champions league final, in a pub like environment...
The English are beyond a shadow of a doubt at least among the best supporters ever, they sing, they cry, they put their hearts into the hands of these eleven players... For those who don't follow football, you might not understand this, regardless and going back to the point, the english fair play after being shatter is amazing. I was supporting ManU, not for any special reason, just think they played the best football this season, yet I felt the sorrow of the chelsea supporters. I mean how exciting was this game, I didn't care that much, but I did cheered, and screamed, and felt the air of excitment contaminating the environment, the tenntion, the prays, all into a very even match...
In fact I would say Chelsea did more, but at the end that doesn't guarantee anything in football, or life for that matter. Isn't it just fascinating how countries stop to watch 22 people fighting for a ball, I mean, life stops, simplicity sets in, and suddenly everything follows these simple rules, that at times are not well applied by the referee, there is a luck factor, there is a hard work factor, creativity, talent, hope, pride, action, reaction, then again isn't that just like life... ;)

OOOH AHHH JUST A LITTLE BIT

Eheheh, so following up on my new play list, yes as cheesy as possible, but so much fun....



Well don't have much to say, just you know, could tell you about life lessons, stuff that happen today, this or that, yet the simplicity of a song, feeling the beat and moving, honestly sometimes or even most of the times, just keep it simple, the rest will follow... if not well I never said I am never wrong, but I do say I rarely am ;P
Life is in the simplicity of just living.... ( yes you can quote me on this one, but do give me credit, my ego needs to be feed ;P)

The begining of the week

And as a start I have to say I wont be able to post for a few days ... :P
Hope nobody misses me too much...

Smirk of a bad boy ;P

Well today i woke up in a positive good mood, why? well i have no idea why, yet today woke up and felt positive, I can't begin to explain it, it was simply the case. Well this hasn't happen in a while, and you don't really question good news :P.
Anyways got up, got ready to the sound of the song I posted yesterday, and went for lunch at the university.
I was walking and I felt the need for tunes that were fitting this strange mood, scrolled the play lists and found the Now Dance, pushed play, and simply enjoyed the walk. As I passed a window i noticed that I had a smirk on my face, the type of smirk you have when you are bad boy, yet not too bad... ehehhehe, anyways ended up having a extremely productive day at the office, unfortunately I didn't go out to use this apparent charm I had today, but I used the positive effects of it in work.
Today I sang while walking, danced while walking, fucking didn't care while walking, realised how fucking awesome I am... I hope i still remember it tomorrow...
Here you go, one of the songs of the day, I am sure it will provide a better picture ;)

Black Box

Ok, today i have one from the time capsule, who remembers this one? I honestly am not that old :P but it is cool...

The Raven

One of my favorite poems, a bit dark and brilliant.
I invite you to follow it has Christopher Walken recites it perfectly...



Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore--
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
"'Tis some visiter," I muttered, "tapping at my chamber door--
Only this and nothing more."

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow;--vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow--sorrow for the lost Lenore--
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore--
Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me--filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating
"'Tis some visiter entreating entrance at my chamber door--
Some late visiter entreating entrance at my chamber door;
This it is and nothing more."

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
"Sir," said I, "or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you"--here I opened wide the door--
Darkness there and nothing more.

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortals ever dared to dream before;
But the silence was unbroken, and the stillness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, "Lenore?"
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, "Lenore!"--
Merely this and nothing more.

Back into the chamber turning, all my sour within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping something louder than before.
"Surely," said I, "surely that is something at my window lattice;
Let me see, then, what thereat is and this mystery explore--
Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore;--
'Tis the wind and nothing more.

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately Raven of the saintly days of yore.
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he,
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door--
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door--
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then the ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
"Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou," I said, "art sure no craven,
Ghastly grim and ancient Raven wandering from the Nightly shore--
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning--little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door--
Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as "Nevermore."

But the Raven, sitting lonely on that placid bust, spoke only
That one word, as if its soul in that one word he did outpour
Nothing farther then he uttered; not a feather then he fluttered--
Till I scarcely more than muttered: "Other friends have flown before--
On the morrow he will leave me, as my Hopes have flown before."
Then the bird said "Nevermore."

Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
"Doubtless," said I, "what it utters is its only stock and store,
Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster
Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore--
Till the dirges of his Hope that melancholy burden bore
Of 'Never--nevermore.'"

But the Raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird and bust and door;
Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore--
What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore
Meant in croaking "Nevermore."

This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core;
This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamp-light gloated o'er,
But whose velvet violet lining with the lamp-light gloating o'er
She shall press, ah, nevermore!

Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
Swung by Seraphim whose foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor.
"Wretch," I cried, "thy God hath lent thee--by these angels he hath sent thee
Respite--respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore!
Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe and forget this lost Lenore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil!--prophet still, if bird or devil!--
Whether Tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
Desolate, yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted--
On this home by Horror haunted--tell me truly, I implore--
Is there--is there balm in Gilead?--tell me--tell me, I implore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil!--prophet still, if bird or devil!
By that Heaven that bends above us--by that God we both adore--
Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn,
It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels name Lenore--
Clasp a rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore."
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Be that our sign of parting, bird or fiend!" I shrieked, upstarting--
"Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul has spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken!--quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming
And the lamp-light o'er him streaming throws his shadows on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted--nevermore!

On days that pass through you...

... listen to what makes you feel real.
Straight from the time vault "fear of the dark", enjoy....

Quote of the day

Today a quote from a friend after me whinnying about either i should be an engineer and the fact that nobody would say that i am just by having a normal conversation with me:

"The fact that people can't read you like a book is what makes you special"

Sometimes other people give interesting insight :P

PhD Comics

Right today I will give some PhD humor, really great site, and does give me a lot to think about... And trust me sometimes it is REALLY NOT FUNNY :P



http://www.phdcomics.com/comics.php

A bit of the past...

... To understand the future, or so someone more corny would say, yet the concept came to me out of the blue. Today I didn't want to just post a video, wanted a change, so I thought a photo, thus my journey into the past began.
The thing is I don't want to talk too much, but well 10 years have past and here I am contemplating such records of time...



The beginning of a trip, Lisbon as a background, in the boat towards the future... I have to note that in this picture are absent some important people (Nena, Marta, Guy (although absent from the trip)) who came latter yet it was the beginning...
I feel compelled to tell the story of these kids, well we would have hated that word, these mature dudes :P, how was it that one of us put it... The cream of society!
A bit arrogant I know, and just for the record it wasn't me, it came from the most unexpected dude of the group :P
It is funny to see the future from the past, that is how I feel looking at this photo, I feel I am there but I can see it all, I feel sad for them (including me), I see the potential and all the wonder in this group, yes yes I know it is cliché, yet it is true.
People go there separate ways, nothing like 10 years to show you that, yet the feeling of so much more that you had at the time that seemed so real, leads to...
Well not complaining I still hold some friends from that group, one great one (not on the picture), but you feel that it could have been much more...
That is life for you, I am now something I could not imagine then, and yet I feel the same kid, yes I can say kid now, that I was then, I simply understand more... Perhaps experience isn't just the bullshit word we thought it was in our youth.
Life takes us to unexpected places, indeed it does, I feel bad I have little visual memories of my life, I always thought that the memories in my brain would be enough, I was wrong looking at this triggers so much more than what I remember...
Anchors of my past still remain, but their weight can't be measure in just their current impact, event the anchors that are long gone had their effect on me...
Nostalgia is a very Portuguese thing, or maybe not, we like to think of "Fado", fate, destiny, nostalgia, feeling of something that you miss, this word that you can simply feel at times, this is one of those times...
Before I end, and I am talking too much already, I will add music to this, it fits like a glove, or so I’ve been told by another person not of this group but of this time, this is one of the songs we'll remember always, and thus a tribute to you and to the kids in the picture...

Where is my mind?

I am tired of apologizing for not being in the mood for writing, so today no apologies... But I am not writing much either :P. Here are some words to bare in mind when reading my blog, with bigger meaning due to the quality of a great movie, it is all about perspective :P

Canceled post

Well I wanted to post a song, but it wasn't available, I'll find a way latter to put it up, this one doesn't compensate for it but...

The thought triggering chorus... (follow up)

Today I decided to do a follow up on this(the post from 26Th of April) since I do want to share the answer for that post. It came very quickly to me as an answer, yet it is a process of showing... well lets keep it short the words speak for themselves...



... thus game on world!

Small lessons

The thing about a full day is that you are too destroyed to talk about it.
Nevertheless I can give insight to others has I just did :P, and by passing other knowledge.
You want to make things right? Too bad. Nothing's ever right.
Reminds you of someone? Here is a hint with more insight on the words...

Dark Blue

Hey, so today I am destroyed, feeling the panic sinking in about my PhD and as a result working as a pig and not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, among other things on my mind which don't help. Anyways to the point, for those who don't know my laptop is called dark_blue, this is something established years ago, so I was surprised to find a song with this name. It is one of those that as we say in Portuguese "primeiro estranha-se depois entranha-se" roughly "first you find it strange and after it sticks in you", so enjoy, by the way for the record I do feel dark blue...

Problem solving

No, unfortunately this is not a work related post, I wish I this was about problem solving in a work related manor, or about me, well maybe not about me since I’ve been avoiding that topic for a while. Also I want to apologize for not talking about feeling people feeling dumb at times; this would be my topic under normal circumstances.
So going to my question, why do people that are able to solve problems end up with everybody else's problems to solve? And don't get me wrong I like solving problems, just not fucking obvious ones, or better yet the consequences of something obvious. I am thinking for review my protection circle, but the thing is some people are simply inside which is fine, but then their protection circle might include people outside of my own, thus the problem starts. One can't turn their back on the problem, yet we can't follow it through after all they are not suppose to get this sort of direction. Not to mention the fact THAT I HAVE MY OWN PROBLEMS TO DEAL WITH, which are assumed that I am able to take care of, which I am BUT THAT IS NOT THE POINT.
Anyways just a bit upset about having to deal with other people's life problems that have obvious solutions that they don't see, they don't want to see, thus making my soul task to deal with consequences of stupidity.
The worst blind is the one that doesn't want to see, and honestly I wish I could not care at all about these people, but the fact of the matter is I do care, which is a shitty situation that pisses me off...
Can't be cold, can't be warm, being in the middle can be looked at the glass being half full or half empty, there is no way to twist it to be full, which you would be able to if you where on either side of the spectrum, but the middle....
In Portugal they say "no meio é que está a virtude" roughly "the virtue is in the middle" well I DON'T see it...

A great find

Today I get a free pass not to writte because of my great find, check this out...



and...



I could go on, but just get the album: Kate Havnevik - MELANKTON
Trust me on this one...

Barely a post...

Barely a post...
It is hard to take action when you know what is at stake, it would be so much simpler to be ignorant of all and simply be... My time is running out, but I feel torn between the need of action and its consequence...
A nice song to compensate for the lack of words, at least I supply borrowed words :P
I was going to put something else as a song but this one simply took over... I am sorry for the video, maybe not the best but I didn't want to put a war video...

Word up...

A nice song has been in my mind, nothing related to my thoughts, simply a song that fits the scenary of a lot I see... This is one of those 80's songs that was lets say of questinable quality and now, well enjoy...

Back from Milan

Hello, well I'm back and as usual I am tired, so post are delayed for tomorrow :P...