In a grey day like today, when words are short and thoughts are immense, I found this classic Tori Amos song...
When short of words, one can always rely on the poets of the world, specially the great ones that talk not only in words but also with music... Hope you enjoy...
Snow can wait, I forgot my mittens
Wipe my nose, get my new boots on
I get a little warm in my heart when I think of winter
I put my hand in my fathers glove
I run off where the drifts get deeper
Sleeping beauty trips me with a frown
I hear a voice you must learn to stand up for yourself
Cause I cant always be around
He says when you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that Ill always want you near
You say that things change my dear
Boys get discovered as winter melts
Flowers competing for the sun
Years go by and Im here still waiting
Withering where some snowman was
Mirror mirror wheres the crystal palace
But I only can see myself
Skating around the truth who I am
But I know, dad, the ice is getting thing
When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that Ill always want you near
You say that things change my dear
Hair is grey and the fires are burning
So many dreams on the shelf
You say I wanted you to be proud
I always wanted that myself
When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gona change so fast
All the white horses have gone ahead
I tell you that Ill always want you near
You say that things change my dear
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
The PEZ...
Well today I wanted to talk about something trivial, what better topic than PEZ. What is PEZ? Well if you are asking you should be ashamed of yourself... PEZ is a candy that is loaded into a PEZ dispensor, which can come as several characters. One of my birthday presents was a huge dispensor, that dispenses loads of PEZ for the smaller dispensors. Anyways just wanted to state PEZ is awesome :P. For more infomartion, well go to ...
http://www.pez.com/
And enjoy a classic...
http://www.pez.com/
And enjoy a classic...
Monday, April 20, 2009
Loneliness factor...
First I want to apologise for the lack of posting, it has been a bit difficult namely because I still don't have internet at home (Long story, let's just say virgin sucks).
So I've been reading up on swarm theory and swarm intelligence, which by itself has probably little interest to the regular person, hey I work in the field (sort of :P) and have little interest in it :P. But I came across a "interesting" fact (notice how I stated "interesting" :P) about human cells. So apparently they commit suicide if they, and I quoting now, "feel lonely". When I first read it, I was like what? But after checking with people more in the biology field, this is actually true. The question is how do you quantify this "feeling"? I mean honestly it is suppose to be science, the cell feels alone and commits suicide? At least sounds a bit off.
The thing that fascinated me was the cell awareness to its loneliness state, I can imagine it communicating "is there anybody there?", "yes", "yes", etc... But the question is does it ask, or waits for someone to ask? I mean seems a bit redundant to ask if someone just asked? :P
Anyway the point of this post is even cells need company, the happiness is only true when shared thing, even the cells know it, well maybe knowing is a bit word :P
So I've been reading up on swarm theory and swarm intelligence, which by itself has probably little interest to the regular person, hey I work in the field (sort of :P) and have little interest in it :P. But I came across a "interesting" fact (notice how I stated "interesting" :P) about human cells. So apparently they commit suicide if they, and I quoting now, "feel lonely". When I first read it, I was like what? But after checking with people more in the biology field, this is actually true. The question is how do you quantify this "feeling"? I mean honestly it is suppose to be science, the cell feels alone and commits suicide? At least sounds a bit off.
The thing that fascinated me was the cell awareness to its loneliness state, I can imagine it communicating "is there anybody there?", "yes", "yes", etc... But the question is does it ask, or waits for someone to ask? I mean seems a bit redundant to ask if someone just asked? :P
Anyway the point of this post is even cells need company, the happiness is only true when shared thing, even the cells know it, well maybe knowing is a bit word :P
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
The Wii...
Well, eater break is over, my mom came to visit and bought me Wii for my birthday (which was a month ago). Went to Cambridge and I want to write a post on that but now, a simple post for the Wii.
First I think they should put a warning on it saying probable muscle pain when used ;P my arm is killing me, on the upside, my muscles should be getting bigger, or one would hope ;P
The Wii seems to be a awesome piece of equipment, not for the graphics or games, but for the interaction, plus I was never that good at playing bowling, first time on the Wii 164 points, when in real life I barely passed 100, once :P. All in all just fun, action and games, instead of the normal fun and games :P.
Ohh be careful with the baseball, pitching will destroy your arms :P
I'll keep you posted on new developments, for now the Wii rules :)
One interesting video enjoy :P
First I think they should put a warning on it saying probable muscle pain when used ;P my arm is killing me, on the upside, my muscles should be getting bigger, or one would hope ;P
The Wii seems to be a awesome piece of equipment, not for the graphics or games, but for the interaction, plus I was never that good at playing bowling, first time on the Wii 164 points, when in real life I barely passed 100, once :P. All in all just fun, action and games, instead of the normal fun and games :P.
Ohh be careful with the baseball, pitching will destroy your arms :P
I'll keep you posted on new developments, for now the Wii rules :)
One interesting video enjoy :P
Friday, April 3, 2009
Amitriptyline...
So today I am making a comment on the fucking anti-depression medication for curing headaches. The headache does go away, but you become numb, not even just that, it is like you feel your headache but not really, you feel that part of the brain but it doesn't hurt, you are simply aware it is there. You become slower in thought, which for me was quite annoying, plus yesterday night when I choose to stop the medication, the headache was quite heavy, more so than usual. Another side effect of this shit is the need for sleep, and although this is on the warnings, it doesn't say if you take it at night you will have 100 times more difficulty getting out of the bed in the morning. All in all, I don't recommend this shit to anyone, at least for headaches...
For depression, I really feel for the people that need to take simmilar drugs, the numbness is confusing, seriously not a nice feeling. You feel like it is you, but you are not really there, anyway my comment is made ;)
For depression, I really feel for the people that need to take simmilar drugs, the numbness is confusing, seriously not a nice feeling. You feel like it is you, but you are not really there, anyway my comment is made ;)
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Lack of motivation...
Today I want to ask a question, and hopefully by the end of the text I will produce an answer, if not please help ;P. How do we deal with the lack of motivation? The type of feeling that overwhelms us making it impossible to act? The feeling when we know we can do it, we see what needs to be done and how, and yet the power of this feeling prevents us of acting.
Motivation is a tricky feeling, but to understand it let's look at the definition of the word:
1. the psychological feature that arouses an organism to action toward a desired goal; the reason for the action; that which gives purpose and direction to behavior; "we did not understand his motivation"; "he acted with the best of motives"
2. the condition of being motivated; "his motivation was at a high level"
3. the act of motivating; providing incentive
When looking upon the definition one clearly sees the reason for the action. The question is what if the reason is clear, but you don't feel it. I do something towards achieving an objective, but this objective might be define by a third person that can in turn provide yourself with an objective, something like do this for me because I can help you with that. This should obviously degrade the motivation, since it is a second tear motivation, right? Well not really, it really depends on how much you want something. At the end of the day you are motivated to do several things on different tear levels, but you do feel it, you see it, and this is what I ask. Is motivation a feeling or a logical thought? Because I see all the logical sense on what should motivate me, but that does not provide me with motivation.
It is a puzzle for me, how to trigger the feeling of motivation when, and this is the tricky part, you seem not to want anything? And don't get me wrong, I want things, but I don't crave for them, meaning if I don't get them, well it wont matter that much to me.
Which raises another question, if you don't bother you shouldn't so it, but in reality to be in this world and society you need to do stuff, even if you don't bother. Like most people don't bother about their job, but they still do it, the question is why? To live in this world one needs to take part in it, I guess, but where do you find the motivation to do so, if you can follow this reasoning? Well I don't know do you?
Motivation is a tricky feeling, but to understand it let's look at the definition of the word:
1. the psychological feature that arouses an organism to action toward a desired goal; the reason for the action; that which gives purpose and direction to behavior; "we did not understand his motivation"; "he acted with the best of motives"
2. the condition of being motivated; "his motivation was at a high level"
3. the act of motivating; providing incentive
When looking upon the definition one clearly sees the reason for the action. The question is what if the reason is clear, but you don't feel it. I do something towards achieving an objective, but this objective might be define by a third person that can in turn provide yourself with an objective, something like do this for me because I can help you with that. This should obviously degrade the motivation, since it is a second tear motivation, right? Well not really, it really depends on how much you want something. At the end of the day you are motivated to do several things on different tear levels, but you do feel it, you see it, and this is what I ask. Is motivation a feeling or a logical thought? Because I see all the logical sense on what should motivate me, but that does not provide me with motivation.
It is a puzzle for me, how to trigger the feeling of motivation when, and this is the tricky part, you seem not to want anything? And don't get me wrong, I want things, but I don't crave for them, meaning if I don't get them, well it wont matter that much to me.
Which raises another question, if you don't bother you shouldn't so it, but in reality to be in this world and society you need to do stuff, even if you don't bother. Like most people don't bother about their job, but they still do it, the question is why? To live in this world one needs to take part in it, I guess, but where do you find the motivation to do so, if you can follow this reasoning? Well I don't know do you?
Monday, March 30, 2009
Depression medication?
Well apparently I am going to try that now :P, but for headaches. Today went to the doctor and told him about some recurring headaches that I have. So told me about this drug that is an anti depressive, but that they use it in small doses for such cases. So far so good right? Go to the doctor, explain the problem, get a solution. But what I found funny was the fact that he was worried that I might take offence on the type of medication. After thinking about it, it obviously makes sense, people might feel that depression whatever is something to stay clear of. Sounds stupid, but it is funny with the right type of humour. Nevertheless it was interesting and now I am on prescription anti-depressives medication ;P, at least if it helps with the headaches ;P
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