Mobile phones

Firstly let me apologize for the late post entry, regardless I have an interesting topic.
So mobile phones this plague we can't live without, hard to imagine life without them, I mean I got my first one around 10 years ago, and I really don't understand how I could operate any sort of social life without it. The fact is we did live without it, and I did do stuff, and meet friends and so forward. The mobile gives us freedom to plan unplanned events, thus allows us to live more intensively, we don't need to wait we can call, I mean 5 minutes late let's see what is happening, I might have time to grab a cup of coffee in the meantime :P. Note that I am not being ironic I do think it is a great tool, after all it is one of my expertise engineering wise :P, the thing is mobiles are around and are a part of our lives for several reasons, and strangely enough this post is not about that :P, it is about what we can get out of it...
Right so everyone has a mobile, this means idiots have mobiles which can be a scary concept :P. This post is to target the people that use mobiles regardless of the situation, so it is targeting the idiots that forget to turn off the mobile in the cinema (ok I am guilty of that one :P) and as if that isn't enough they pick up and TALK DURING THE MOVIE, honestly WHAT THE FUCK!! Sometimes they pick up to say I am in the movie I’ll call you latter, I mean how stupid can you be? Have you heard of SMS? Or just rejecting the call? Ohh right some other idiots take it personally if you reject their call, I mean god forbid that I call you and you are busy, that can't happen I mean aren't I the center of the universe? NO you are not...
And now for the subtleties, I mean people act like that when they have no respect for others, or thing others have no respect for them. Analyzing the extreme positions it is always obvious what is the right way to do it, but what about the grey areas?
If you are getting a cup of coffee with a friend and someone calls you? And what if the conversation with your friend is a serious one? I mean don't get me wrong some calls are important and you might need to take it, which you can explain, but would you pick up and talk in front of the person for ages? (When I get an important call I excuse myself for a bit, but hey that is just me) You can really see how people see you through their behavior, I have loads of tests for that :P (maybe on another post :P), but the mobile one is a new addition, and the beauty of if is I don't have to do it, people do it for you...
The mobile is always present, so it is just a matter of time, they start texting for no given reasonable reason, or pick up the phone on "your" time, meaning the time they are suppose to be with you, and again for no reason, I mean how are is it to I’ll call you back, considering that rejecting the call is out of the question :P
The thing is this test is not set in stone because there are exceptions in it, has in any other test, but I am starting to realize that the mobile reaction is key in predicting the sort of relation you want to have with someone... but then again I might be wrong, it has been known to happen, just not often :P.

The devilish snooze button

Or the button from hell, temptation itself, it only appears in the morning just next to the one that means get out of bed, I mean honestly who doesn't ever push the snooze?
Today as you must have guess I pushed the snooze button, or so I thought, so I oversleep. It happens, still it got me wondering why the fuck we use this button so much, I mean why not set an hour when our mind is clear, without given time already for the snooze pressing, honestly do those 5 minutes really make a difference? Well I feel they do in the morning, but I think they don't the rest the day :P.
You wake up and think, 5 minutes, what is that, the "me" from last night knows nothing, the morning "me" thinks it is fine, who needs a clear head to make decisions? Hazy is the best way to decide :P.
And when you do multiple snooze pushes, I mean honestly why? What sort of mind set do we have to do it? And the thing is that it seems to make sense, I am conscious when I do it, and it seems clear the logic. Just one of those frustrations that one lives with, and don't get me wrong I love that button except when shit like today happens, or multiple snooze which I think makes me more tired :P.
The coolest thing is when you are dreaming, because you don't really wake up, you snooze and then you are in the dream but knowing it is a dream, better even your dream, thus you can control it :P so fucking fun that I really hope you know what I am talking about...
Regardless of the coolness, I really despise the alarm manufactures for coming up with this option, because honestly the idea I can't blame them, but come on keep it away (ok the morning "me" doesn't agree with this at all :P).
Anyways I am putting myself on probation no snooze for a week, I’ll keep you posted to what happens, if I can remember that is :P.

"Happiness is only real when shared"

A quote from the movie I have to mention due to the relevance and comes in a nice sequence I would say, but I am getting ahead of myself.
The name of the movie is "Into the wild" based on a true story of a guy that goes on what he calls "the great Alaska adventure", and the path that lead there, the disconnection with society, with the known world, with the preconceptions of society. I don't want to tell much about the road and his conclusions since I expect you to watch the movie and I don't want to spoil it. But I do want to address his need to get away, to leave the preconceptions of society and its rules.
Remember the anchors? well it fits here, without then we are simple a leap away from what he does in the movie, this person with whom one has at least one or two characteristics in common, sometimes just a little voice in our heads saying what if I went? Would it matter? Would I find myself? Well I’ll leave the similarities between you and the character for you to do, and keep in mind that it is based on a true story.
With anchors one never really does it, because they provide the stability and the reason to move in a certain way, to move and realize ones potential. That is the thing, even if it doesn't matter to you, there is a force pushing you to realize your potential. The anchors, your friends, whatever it is, provides a stable balance where you have to be a certain way, simply because you can...
And for the first time I don't see this as a betrayal of ones self, I would think that if you get pushed by others than it is not our path, simply the path that is expected. The thing is, they do it because they "love" you (in Portuguese I would not use this word but English is a bit more restrictive), that doesn't mean you shouldn't follow your own way, but you should disregard others, after all a men is not simply a men, it is always a men and his circumstances, his anchors, his reasons for living. The quote that you might be somebody's world comes in here, you might and thus you should be care for that world, if not for any other reason, for the other person's sake.
Be adventurous, feel life, and surround yourself by those who matter, present in your world or not, don't let those bridges fade, they are your own definition, seek happiness but know that it is only real when shared, a life time of accomplishments means nothing for an empty world, but bare in mind that you need these accomplishments to share with those you find, life is a balance wills and forces, the simple equilibrium of happiness will come from the simplicity of moments, the ones you share unknowingly simple and pure. A night out with friends and you make fools of yourselves with one cheesy song, can anyone tell me how much more simple and fun life can be? The simplicity of acceptance, we are not simple, but life is, we will over complicate it, but in the end it comes out to the ability of facing yourself, and saying this is me but that is my life...
Otherwise life will be what happens when you are busy making plans (again in tone with last night's post)...

Rambling

Tears of the mind, for some of the soul, the purity of thought, the balance of existence, the touch of your inner deepness. Thoughts of silent rage, of pure energy of hate, the inability to distinguish feelings, the purest prove of existence, in the mist of the void there's you. Feelings are beyond the real, impacting our material existence, our logical assumptions, and our need for definitions. Defining beyond the real, we lose our sanities, creating a hole in our soul, maintaining this conflict of being.
What the fuck am I talking about, should not post any of this shit, since it doesn't even make sense to me, just random sentences... Anyways I was about to delete them but I figure it defeats the purpose of the blog. Besides I don't really thing people will bother about it.
During next week the address of the blog goes into my msn, so the hour of releasing it to the world is here. Shouldn't make any difference since the people I did expect to feedback have it already, but lack the action either to read or to reply, which is kind of disappointing... Well at least it defeats the argument you don't share things, what's the point of sharing, "quid pro quo"... That is one of my favorite quotes ever, and I do get something out of it besides the ability to argue, I gain a record for myself, I guess I am analyzing the existence of the blog.
The name was well chosen, I am going toward nothing, literally, but if that changes well it still fits. Really don't want to write shit today.
I am going to watch a movie that I have a feeling will be the topic of tomorrow, and hopefully will change something of today, I’ll keep you posted.
One quote I liked from today "Instead of making plans for your life, plan to be surprised" it wasn't exactly this but you get the general idea.
Sorry for this post...

The anchors

Hey, so I really don't want to write shit today, but I did have an interesting conversation with a friend which produced what I am relaying (hopefully at least).
Tell me something that defines your life? What was it that came to mind? A person? A characteristic? An event? Whatever it was, ask yourself this, is it an anchor to who you are? Is it a thing that binds you to the existence that you have?
This is the main question, how many things are in your life that is a pillar of who you are? Don’t rush to answer it is quite a trick question if you think about, for example friends, are they an ancorr to who you are? Well in a way for sure, but they don't bind you to who you are, the whole definition of friend is no matter what they are there, if you move, if you change, the thing do friends help to define or describe you? (This goes beyond my original thought, cool :D)
The point that I wanted to make is, how many things bind you to the life you have now? And notice I used the word bind to give enfaces. I can think of one for me, my mom, so here is a tribute to her, awesome woman to whom I pretty much owe who I am.
The thing is, if we have little things binding us to our lives, honestly how many of you can really say your job is binding you? Isn’t it a social imposition that we have to take advantage of our potential thus having a good job? I guess my question was can we change?
Honestly I don't think so, but due to the anchors in our life, even one makes the difference, and honestly you should think about yours to give then the relevance they deserve, after all you are only where you are due to this binding.

Small mix

Big day today, started out slow, mobile run out of battery thus no alarm in the morning so oversleeping mode was on. Woke up still with yesterday's considerations, and how the recognition of the lost opportunities also denotes potential, which was a quite good realization, like the saying goes "every day is a new day to do better" and be better.
The work was mainly finding a good way to structure the impacts of the proposal that I am helping to put together with some colleagues, so nothing much there.
Now I’ll become less grounded and lift of to the abstract extrapolations...(sorry for that :P) since don't want to talk too much, if I stop half way, well who cares anyway...
Real time reactions, the things that you have to react to in real time, thus very little time to process the information... Normally it is quite easy to avoid situations where real time reactions occurs, don't get me wrong you always have them, but if you consider scenarios before hand and explore them through (at least a few levels in, meaning previewing some of the consequences and their required reaction...), this gives you quick reaction time to predicted scenarios, and not only that, it gives you the ability to better guide the situation to the scenario you find more suitable.(I could go on, but this is not the point of today :P)
Even will all efforts to avoid real time reactions, eventually you will be in such situations, the question is how not to react in a way that you might not want to justify, or in a way you can't justify, at least for me this is quite important, accountability is a key issue in human interaction.
Anyways today I realized something that I’ve been noticing for a while, I can almost react in real time, I can read things quicker than before, thus I must say that experience does give you this ability, and obviously the ability to damage control....
Ok, enough with that one, lets move on, I found myself wondering in unfamiliar territory exploring the corners of my mind in the search for justifications, and basically I identified fear as one of the key driving forces of life, not only mine, but how it goes to explain so many others. When you look at a situation and try to localize fear chances are you'll find it, it is always there, sometimes a bit more hidden than others but it is always present. (Quite interesting considering the "who move my cheese" theory of "what would I do if I wasn't scared?")
Fear of life, or fear of not living, or both which is simply a fucked up situation, it is scary how much fear plays us in life, fear of failure, fear, fear, fear, but fuck what is this concept of fear? Why do we feel it? Do we actually feel it or is it a figment of rationalization, does it come from our instincts or from our ability to consider the different scenarios through logic? This one is hard, I thing I feel fear, but I also create fear from logic, possibilities, probabilities, fuck where am I in all of this. "Fear is the mind killer" quote from "Dune" which I want extend to life killer, soul corruptor, conscience shifter, thoughts molder, and I could go on.
And I’ll stop with the fear, although this is really not the whole picture.
The last one I want to mention if our inability to face what we don't want to know, the extent we go to avoid the recognition of things we know but simply wish we didn't. This is obviously connected to fear, but it is not resumed to it, the need to elude ourselves, to pretend, to dream, to.... one simple question why?
Every one is playing their game, their strategy, their rules, their life, I hate playing my game.... How do you feel about yours?

The tongue theory

Today I want to cover two topics, the first one is the one that gives the topic, the other is simply a regret in the form of a thought or a thought in the form of a regret, you figure it out.
Right today I heard a great theory about the tongue, which I never thought about but it goes well with some of my theories (which ones, well I’ll tell on request only so get more interactive :P).
So the theory states that you should check another person's tongue to check if you are compatible (you are not reading wrong compatibility through tongue :P), so basically if you have a round tongue you will want another person with a similar tongue so you get distributed stimulus in the tongue, but if you have a pointy tongue, then you'll want a tongue that localizes the stimulus to the tip of it. Quite simple if you thing about and it does make sense, so a new line comes to mind for pulling girls, "hey show me your tongue to see if we hit it off" :P or "hey babe, show us some tongue" :P, jokes aside there might be more to this than meets the eye (so thanks for this theory, you know who you are :P).
Theme two is a bit more serious, lost opportunities, or since I like the word, the wasted potential, so the things that potentially might be. Sometimes potential simply passes by without you even realizing it, I mean those are the worst type of situations, not the ones that you pass consciously (although those suck, guilt trips and shit), but the ones you don't clearly see until they are gone. One way or another, you don't make the decision it simply is made due to lack of vision, and that sucks, really not a cool thing. Some things are simply potentials of the realm of utopia, where everything is clear and we due our own mistakes by choice and not by lack of vision. Still one wonders when we see it, what if? Even though time as passed, after all isn't all relative anyway?